I thought most of the people have dreamed about a perfect life with a perfect family and a perfect job... My objective in this life is not to be perfect, but happy.
I'm named redhead by my friends, Lena by my family, but in the identity card
I'm Helena Fernandez Goy.
The truth is that I always prefer to be named Helena.
Helena it's a name of Greek mythology, but another truth is that I don't
resemble anything to the beautiful woman of Troya.
But I always thought that I really had something of the ancient Greeks:
This analytical mind, extreme sensitivity, perfectionism and curiosity for the
world around me.
Also undecided is an adjective applied, cause I'm in second of Batxillerat
and I don't have idea of what I'm going to do in a "future".
I never throught about my future: or I thought much.
Now I'm even more disoriented than before.
My plan for now is ending the batxillerat and feel the freedom on my
shoulders. A half-freedom for a time.
I'm sure that after the batxillerat, I would do selectivity to feel proud
of myself.
I don't imagine myself in the university, but I know that probably it would be
my reality after the selectivity.
I always thought that I was born to travel.
I know that the people when hear it think that I'm stupid or something
similar... That's because they don't know what travel is.
They think that travel is only a hobbie. A simple hobbie or a entertainment
to not spend summers on the couch watching Salvame Deluxe.
But for me, is more than this. Well, for me isn't it at all.
Now, I would like to see me in Calgary, looking for the main road,
ready to walk for hours to reach Banff, and feel the cold in my hands.
Then, Rocky Mountains or Alberta; visiting Jasper and their Twin Lakes
and the miette river.
Walking without knowing where I'll sleep today.
Sleep not knowing where I'll be tomorrow.
Knowing people who I never would have known if I had not walked.
Feeling accomplished.
Again, feel the cold in my hands.
And the happiness.
